When
I was invited to review Andrea Buchanan’s Mother
Shock, I accepted with some trepidation. I really wanted to
like this book, but I was afraid I might be in for another soppy
rendition of one woman learning the ropes of motherhood, complete
with sanitized descriptions of the emotional free-fall of family
life and cheery anecdotes about the cute, crazy-making things those
oh-so-lovable kids do to make your life a living hell. Frankly,
I’ve read enough of that sort of thing to last a lifetime.
So I was delighted to discover that Mother Shock
is a refreshingly down-to-earth account of pregnancy, childbirth
and early motherhood that transmits something truly important
about what the complicated and conflicted life of real-world mothers
actually feels like.
Buchanan compares the
emotional upheaval of the early months of new motherhood to the
experience of culture shock: “Imagine you have just moved
to a foreign country. You have the worst case of jet lag ever. The
guidebook you brought, which seemed so comprehensive before you
left home, does not tell you everything you need to know. You don’t
speak the language, and everything is confusing …Despite the
newness of everything, in this country you are expected to adapt
immediately. But the rhythms of life are different here …You
miss your old life, where everything was familiar. You miss your
friends back home, who only imagine the excitement of your travels
and are unable to understand the difficulties you describe.”
It’s a clever and apt analogy, and it serves Buchanan well
as she recounts the internal sea changes and tectonic shifts that
rocked her world during the first years of her daughter’s
life.
Mother Shock
is a collection of short essays written over a period of several
years; a few of the readings were previously published on HipMama
and in print anthologies. A number of the entries are only
three or four pages long, making Mother Shock an ideal
read for mothers who are hard pressed for personal time (and who
among us is not?)-- one can easily polish off one or two slices of
Buchanan’s smooth prose in under 30 minutes. I’d be
hard pressed to pick a short list of favorites, but “Loving
Every (Other) Minute of It,” “The Invisible Woman,”
and “Confessions of a Bottle Feeder” should be required
reading for every mother and mother-to-be.
Mother Shock
is indeed a pleasure to read, but it can also be appreciated as
an act of resistance. Buchanan rejects the subtle and not-so-subtle
cultural cues that encourage mothers to put on a happy face -- even
if their hearts are roiling with confusion, dread, and bitter
disillusionment. Sociologist and author Susan
Maushart describes this facade as the “mask of motherhood,”
and Mother Shock invites us take a long, hard look at what
lies beneath.
While the essays in Mother
Shock take the classic approach -- which is to say they elaborate
on the emotional and practical challenges of becoming a mother --
Buchanan recounts her personal experiences from an angle that is
not necessarily comforting or comfortable. For example, she lets
the reader know in no uncertain terms that it’s impossible
to really know what to expect when you’re expecting. Not all
pregnancies end up as beautiful babies boys and girls – some
come to an end almost as soon as they begin, but there is scant
social recognition of the sadness and sense of vulnerability a mother
feels after miscarriage. And by the way, those lovingly
crafted birthing plans are completely meaningless when the course
of nature and modern medical intervention take over the show.
For those unusually resilient
or uninitiated individuals who’ve manage to cling to a few
tender fantasies about perfect maternal moments filled with transcendent
bliss, Buchanan is here to reminds us that it’s much, much
easier (an a lot more blissful) to imagine being a mother than it
is to actually be one -- and that the perfect moments of
motherhood are subtle, rare, and almost never bear any resemblance
to the pictures we carry around in our heads.
Some readers might complain
that Mother Shock is overly pessimistic, but in fact Buchanan’s
style is funny, bright and extremely accessible. The author definitely
has a flair for dark humor; she walks a thin line between making
light of a serious topic and plunging the reader into the depression
zone -- and does so with incredible confidence, so that what the
we see and absorb is the unvarnished truth about motherhood, stretch
marks and all.
My only misgiving about
Mother Shock is that it's the kind of book women tend
to pick up after the baby is born -- after they’ve reached
that weary, disenchanted stage when it's become painfully obvious that
this motherhood gig is not all it’s cracked up to be. Buchanan’s
book would make a far more enlightened shower gift for the new-mom-to-be
than those dreadful how-to-have-a-healthy-baby guides that clutter
up the bedside tables of pregnant women everywhere.
Then again, expectant
mothers might reject Mother Shock as the dispirited work
of a pathetic malcontent who wasn’t cut out to be a mother
in the first place -- because if the writer was Grade A
motherhood material, surely she would have cheerfully assimilated
into her new role and would have presented us with a very different
sort of book -- one filled with charming essays about all the cute,
crazy-making things those oh-so-lovable kids do to make your life
a living hell, etcetera.
Those of us who have
been roughing it through the rocky territory of motherhood for
a few years understand that such mothers would eventually grasp the
delusional quality of this type of thinking. But even if
they find the message of Mother Shock hard to swallow,
at least brand-new mothers -- or mothers-to-be -- who’ve sampled Buchanan’s excellent book will never
have a good reason to ask the perennial question: “why didn’t
anyone ever tell me that motherhood was going to be like this?”
Judith
Stadtman Tucker
October 2003 |